It is easier to be a fanatic than a faithful soul.
I've learnt from many different people and in many different ways, but to know someone whose life exhibits good fruit - in their family life, marriage, other relationships and character - and to learn from them has been most valuable for me. You'll know them by their fruits is the ultimate test of how we've lived our lives because the fruit displays the end result of many small acts of faithfulness over a long period of time.
Some things to think about:
I do all these things (being a wife and a mother, homeschooling) calling on the grace of God.
- Home education - is this a priority for me or am I neglecting it for other things?
- Am I trying to please others to get their approval?
- How many times have I changed what I was doing, not because it wasn't working, but purely because someone else raved about something they were using or said it was the best?
- Do I now find I'm dissatisfied with what I've changed to??
- Am I being faithful where I am at this time?
- Do I get easily distracted by what everyone else is doing?
- Am I comparing my family with another and feeling anxious that we're not doing things as well as they are?
- If so, do I personally know this family and haven't just read about them? Or do they only have girls and I have a houseful of boys?
- Am I a fanatic? (I have tended to be at times...) or am I a faithful soul? (That's what I want to be)
Anxiety never releases tomorrow of its problems. It only empties today of its strengths.